Sunday, July 23, 2017

All Choked Up

The cancer is slowly blocking my air passageways, and I regularly am jostled awake by the feeling of choking. Determining to not seek treatment probably has no bearing at this point as Hopkins has been dragging their feet, when they aren't forgetting to tell me about appointments or ignoring me when I mention I'm coughing up blood. Death will come soon, most likely by suffocation, and I just don't care.

Sunday, July 9, 2017

Rejoice in My Sufferings . . . .

"Now I rejoice in my sufferings for your sake,
and in my flesh I am filling up
what is lacking in the afflictions of Christ
on behalf of his body, which is the Church"

I am so thankful for the teaching on redemptive suffering - that what I am going through - what I soon will be going through - can be used for His glory and for His children - that suffering offered up has purpose - I thank and praise God for this!


Tuesday, July 4, 2017

Perhaps a Miracle

Cancer Sucks!, but I am thankful that my faith, and the Author of my faith, will walk each step with me. I know that I neither need or deserve a miracle (the Lord has my heart either way), but if one were to happen it would be my hope that it could be attributed to someone worthy of canonization, in particular Dorothy Day.

So I ask all my friends, in humility, to daily ask this holy woman to pray for me, thanks and God bless!

Monday, June 26, 2017

Casa Monk for the Summer


Subletting my house for the Summer while I go through radiation and Chemo, if anyone knows someone visiting the area, or that might need a temporary place while looking for a long term home.
*pics in ad


Saturday, June 24, 2017

File Under : Yep, He's from Bawlmer

Hopkins Doc. : You are also going to need a speech therapist
Me: So, I will have trouble talking?
Hopkins Doc: Maybe a little at first
Me: Will I be able to sing in the choir
Hopkins Doc: If all works as it should, of course
Me: that's great, cause they never let me sing before (O:

Thursday, June 22, 2017

File Under : a lil' perspective.

While waiting in line at the Oncologist at Hopkins today there was a young boy in front of me
. . . A boy of about 12 or 13
. . . a young boy with Downs, with leg braces, with cancer
. . .he also had a wonderful smile
. . . So how dare I not smile as well.

Monday, June 19, 2017

He has known all our suffering

Pet/Scan next week and meet with Oncologist at Johns Hopkins.
Sickness, suffering, death, whatever
. . . I am blessed to serve the God who
(to poorly paraphrase Jesus)
"Been there, done that, conquered that Sh*t"

Tuesday, March 28, 2017

Never alone

We speak so often
of Christ's suffering for us
that I fear we forget
that because of that act
each time we suffer
He truly suffers with us

and that is good news indeed!